I almost cried....and I choked my tears back while they running in my eyes...
Through the phone, I heard grandma's voice, mild and warm.
She said, "I am okay and I feel better with my sick arm and leg."
I pretended to be released and congratulated her on her progress
, but my heart was grasped by the vibrating words grandpa said to me earlier
, "your grandma still needs medicine control and continuous exercise."
Yes, apparently she was better but not that better as we wished.
The body couldn't bear the salty food and aging.
Diabetes and then high blood pressure came to her.
What's worse, apoplexy came when I came back from Matsu for 13 days off in my military service.
I spent 6 days looking after her in the hospital.
In 6 days, I thought of my childhood, the happiest time I lived with my grandparents.
She was like my mother, holding me in her arms, taking care of me as her son.
She was once my harbor when I had some punishments.
Some kind of adoring, she made me rich. I could get whatever I want.
She was always smiling and good to me.
It's good to have you in my life.
I know you love me as I love you.
After you was sick, I suddenly felt afraid of losing you.
And I finally know how hurt it is to have anyone you love suffering from pains.
I worried and miss you everyday in Matsu.
I don't want to lose you and I hate to live in fear of losing you.
Life turned to be bitter and complex that I don't know how to go on.
I feel weak to fight with destiny, hard to win the tiring game.
Hope!
I hope the situation will be fine.
Since you've change your diet and drink water even you dislike it.
And it's time for the members in the family to show love to you.
At least I will do.
I got to be strong to accomplish it.
My dear Grandma......
Wish you health...
