I still want to be with U.

U're still the one I don't want to let go of. I can't jump out of the trap you set. My mind is full of u and my every thinking is stuck by u. I taste the feeling of being taken out the air of my breath and pressed of my throat. It is really a dilemma for me to make up my mind to go on with u or not. It is like a romance that we can only be together in each other's mind or even in my mind only. I think I've gone through the days of being lost in the world of having u not. How I hope it never happen,but that would make the trip to USA a nonexistent one.
Help me,almighty God! I am suffering from the dilemma that I don't want to lose any of them.