Aftermath of Loss

I dreamed of you, I dreamed of Boston
last night
with the chilly wind
with the dreamlike moonlight

I was in seventh heaven in it
however I woke up in a big loss
It's subconscious versus reality in me
I know
no matter which wins cannot change the result
-my unsuitability for you

We don't mean to each other
,which makes my heart break
,which makes me think of you still

Poor! But no help...
Eva...unforgettable...
I almost drowned in the river
going through space and time
toward you...dying...