Finally,the end comes.....it's over!

該來的....還是來了，彼此都沒心吧，不然怎能說放就放？一千萬個理由比不上一句不喜歡，原來，短短5分鐘之隔的兩校，也可以有這般遠的距離...一切的回憶回到原點，Boston...我們還是忘記了吧，甚至把那份溫暖，那份感覺遺留在那，忘在熟悉的Square１ Mall，放在Harvard Square......，或是Downtown Crossing外的街上...通往Square１ Mall的Route１， 很長很長，陪著你走的雙腳卻不這麼覺得，牛奶好重好重，拿著它的手卻不那樣認為。宮廷式的中國餐廳似乎近在眼前，呼嚣而過的車聲亦十分刺耳，夢中出現的情景一再的上演，牽著你手的溫度卻慢慢降溫，抓不回...任何一絲絲快樂...
大學四年以來最忙的一學期，壓力最大的一年，原本以為一切都可以因為你而甘之如飴，一個月的不連絡早就慢慢澆熄我的心，為什麼我要堅持不打給你呢？這個月到底發生什麼事...讓你的未來不容許我，累死了...早知道，12月02日就不要遇到你，寧可從此了無音訊，也不願就此將這份感情停住。我該繼續追嗎？事情會有我想像的未來嗎？我到底要不要繼續追...會再一次的受傷嗎？

at a loss........

What a pity that after the busiest days of composing lesson plans comes the easiest days I longed for a lot and I have no idea what to do. I lost a goal to chase for even a world to dream of. That's really called pity. 6 days passed or maybe I can say about 1 month passed, I never get any of your sound. I am sure now I'm not good at handling this kind of affection. So sad.......... It is sure to be more strong when I am out of pressure.

Frustrated.........

今天還真是失望阿....................Boston的回憶是美好的～但是似乎不能延續到台灣................
連續兩次期待給的驚喜........算是驚喜吧!!算了～被放鴿子的感覺.......我並沒那麼重要的，對吧.....

秀秀走了.......

一隻我不是那麼熟悉，卻是姊姊花盡千辛萬苦，不知哭了多少次的狗狗.....今天繼續拍攝"顯靈"，在高玉食堂，姊姊打電話過來，說她正在來台南的路上，帶著秀秀，要到台南市，進行安樂死。一條生命將在幾小時後離開這世界，我的心情好複雜。犬瘟真的好可怕，我早就知道的事實，也聽說過的事實，直到死掉的狗狗是自己曾經看過，聽過，才真的覺得它真的可怕。姊姊一定能更親身地體驗犬瘟，看著醫生預料的症狀一一出現，希望就慢慢下降。發作時的樣子，讓無助的姊姊只能躲在棉被裡哭。可憐的秀秀，我知道妳很堅強的與病魔對抗了3個禮拜，最後妳還是很痛苦的放棄了，你變得醜醜的，好多皮屑，病厭厭的，四肢無力快癱瘓，神經受損，身體不聽使喚，血便，不過一切都沒關係，你是在愛妳的姊姊的懷抱中走完最後一程，現在很快樂地在天堂玩耍呢.........秀秀........請多關懷流浪動物.......拜託!!

IceGroup2005關子嶺Guanzihling

突然...想起了之前快樂的族遊.....關子嶺阿!!!嗚嗚嗚～真是棒!!
IceGroup2005關子嶺Guanzihling

Pressure!!!

The real pressure finally comes. It 's not everywhere but inside my body in every moment. I handle the teaching in elementary school, midterm paper, family, movie making and love affection. And I found it definately hard to handle well in one time. Pressure is going to devour my life when everything is gone with your carelessness. I don't know what my goal is and what I am chasing for.

Damn!! My mood was exposed to the god damn oil!!!!

大鬼...只能說，這一切是巧合或是你誤打誤撞...綠色是缺少愛是吧...............雖然裝做你只是剛好猜中，心裡卻是想著你太神了......那精油真測出人欠缺的元素、心理的狀況阿.........
聽著聽著，發現我還是不敢跟你說，我缺少發洩的對象，但還是悶著，就算你猜中，還是沒勇氣全盤攤出。感謝你的好心，紓解壓力的精油正是我的需要，壓力每個人都有，但是舒壓的對象卻不是每個人都有，有治心碎的精油嗎？唉呀................

I still want to be with U.

U're still the one I don't want to let go of. I can't jump out of the trap you set. My mind is full of u and my every thinking is stuck by u. I taste the feeling of being taken out the air of my breath and pressed of my throat. It is really a dilemma for me to make up my mind to go on with u or not. It is like a romance that we can only be together in each other's mind or even in my mind only. I think I've gone through the days of being lost in the world of having u not. How I hope it never happen,but that would make the trip to USA a nonexistent one.
Help me,almighty God! I am suffering from the dilemma that I don't want to lose any of them.

November 3rd = A Big Misery?

本來還自傲的以為，記得你的生日，笑話一場......對你還是不夠了解～是沒機會還是我懦弱...
上禮拜的要求失敗讓我跌入谷底，今已不管未來如何，相信我們的相處模式該是如此，為其改變自我的人是誰...我該低頭嗎？亦或是繼續逃避，其實每每孤單一人想起美國行，總是好大的落差，自己也不知道該如何是好，也好，這學期的忙讓我有理由逃避現實，今後呢？
11月2日生日快樂─除此之外真不知還有何祝福，快樂為何，快樂既是自給的，又何需要人祝福，這句祝福不外乎是要求人心的成長，能從任何事中得其優而樂，視其劣而勢吧！
人終究是群體生物，需要取人信任而生，優越他人而活，人卑劣嗎？非也，這是天性，只需要求自己不傷害他人即可，但這其實也是最難的部分。似乎人人總是不自覺得在傷害彼此，心臟不夠強的人最後就會走上絕路。
有時該做最壞的打算，才能對一切事物放開，也才能做到完善盡美，我也認了，幾乎認為自己無法放得開的，最後還是逼著自己想通，早在第一次傷痛中領悟到，該是自己的終究會是自己的，不該是自己的，就算強求也是得不到。放開才能與在乎的人有最完美的結局，放不開，只會帶來更大的傷害。以為自己是聖人嗎？還是對自己好一點吧！

Is it really a turn for Dad?

Dad was home today.Originally,I thought it would take a long time for dad's staying in the hospital.

一天之內感覺過了好久!

人生似乎就是一個紀錄著不斷成長的故事,一直遇到新的事物,新的人,會有新的感受,新的衝擊,隨之而來新的想法,新的做法,這就是成長.今天的長庚基督教會,真的讓我們家有了新的際遇,從姊進入School之後,認識伶姬,姊加入關懷流浪動物協會,開始義工生活,如今因為爸爸住院,一家人去唱聖歌.一家人總是有著一堆新的領域要去探索,不管是因為何種原因拉著我們去認識,也不管爸媽的年紀是否半百,我的年紀才20初,我相信家人們都得到成長了.
唱著聖歌的我好想哭阿,閉著嘴巴不敢再唱下去,怕哭出聲音.其實不是因為因主而感動,而是因為聽到爸爸唱歌,想到過去,沒想到這麼快,就要輪到我擔心爸爸的健康了...真是...難得的家族聚會,原本要慶祝爺爺的生日,變成在爸爸的病床邊渡過,一切的變化總不及人預料...
我知道這就是我的人生吧!上天似乎一直在丟難題給我,我知道這就是功課,必須把它完成,才知道它對自己有什麼幫助...

A turn for my family!

今天忽然接到惡耗,爸爸健康檢查發現SGOT和SGPT的指數過高,肝出現危機了.到網站上找,發現其實真的很嚴重,只是我也不知道該怎麼辦...20多年了,加油站的工作加上B肝帶原,竟然沒有辦法澆息想抽煙喝酒的慾望,唉!

C Ray's family owns a new store.

C Ray as a chef

A bowl of beef noodle truely empressed me.

This one was also good. Sweet rare beef! Oh! Thanks God I found you!!!><

Problems occurs from ignorance!

今天上了特導,關於融合教育.看了一部影片,感受良多,一位有輕微情緒障礙的小孩子,得以在回歸主流的提倡下,到普通小學就讀.看似這是一種對他的恩賜,其實對於他們班上的小朋友來說,也是一項大大的幸福.目前在融合教育的推廣之下,很多班級或許都會有一兩個特殊學生,雖然對於老師其他學生,教學與學習會變得艱難,但我覺得這才是社會阿!教育的本質是傳遞知識嗎?在高中,在大學或許是,但是在小學,我認為它是在培養小孩子看待事件的方法,即待人處世.我們會認為一位有情緒障礙的小孩子是一個問題,那我們才真是有問題,我們就是無知!它是給小孩子成長的機會,就如同影片中小孩說的,他(情障學生)的出現,其實是在教導我們處理事情.這群小孩子真的學到很多,也知道解決難題的方法,我相信他們在未來的社會競爭中,必定會比他人多一份優勢.

Pity Dogs......V.S....Cruel humans.....

收容所又來了10隻狗，都是米格魯,這是姊姊從收容所回來後帶來的消息。很好阿!雖然一次丟了那麼多名種狗，但至少他們會被人領養走了，被那些只想養名種犬的愛慕虛容的人們領養走的.....但我卻沒料到他們是一群被繁殖場丟棄的種狗，可惡的商人，作賤自已的人，雖然我不知道你們讓他們一年之內生下幾胎小狗，但是我確定的是你們對他們做的拋棄的惡行，這些狗狗爲你們賺進多少金錢，養你們活口，亦或是填滿你們想發財的慾望，難道這些不足以讓你們好好照顧他們的下半輩子？或是勞點心力幫他們找個主人嗎？送到收容所，是可以，收容所沒理由不收，也沒理由抓你，罰你，只能暗中鄙視你，榨乾這些狗賺進大把鈔票後，把他們丟棄，還要用我們辛苦納稅人的錢來幫你們善後，健康檢查，驅蟲，疫苗，甚至無人認養無奈的安樂死。這些都是龐大的開銷，你只圖你的方便，更甚者你無視生命的存在，你不尊重生命，真難想像你要怎麼教育你的子女。想想這些小狗真是可憐，他們的出生沒有祝福，當你看著這些可愛的小狗出生時，你的眼中是祝福他們可以快樂的成長以及找到好主人嗎？可悲的你該只是想著你又可以買進第幾棟洋房了吧？這個社會的敗類，人類的恥辱．．．．．
可憐的小狗狗們，你們還好年輕，為什麼有的已經因生太多胎又營養不良牙齒掉光了呢？為什麼還有聲帶被剪斷，耳朵被剪斷的呢?對不起，人類真的太貪婪了........每每看到艾斯基摩犬走在台灣炎熱的路上，我都很想問他的主人，請問你是住在北極嗎？你知道你的狗狗現在很熱嗎？你知道你的狗狗因為台灣市場需求，所以他的父母早有某些疾病，又近親交配而來的嗎？所以你的狗狗才會那麼容易生病，特別是皮膚病．．．
真是夠了！

Farewell of Prof. Wu Chih-hsien 吳知賢老師再會了!

Today might be the most impressive of this semester for both us and Prof. Wu. A farewell may show our admire for you since you are the most incredible teacher we have. Like how you emphasized yourself, humor, you're indeed very humor and, moreover, stuffed with lots of knowledge which seems to a new world we have never been until we met you. It's really fantasic to be your student and really sorry that the fantasitc life with you lasted just for 1 year.
Maybe it's really hard to leave you and there is nothing we can do but give you a most impressive memory for your retire. Retire is attractive to all of us, especially when we are about to have no job in 2 years since the vacancy of teaching will no longer exist. Poor students in education system in Taiwan!
Anyway! Thanks for your teaching us. I want to tell you that it is you who lead me to a media world with a different view, which is the ability that will be with me in my lifetime.

A joke or a practical joke?

一項幽默可以從何表現?以何發揮?是自娛娛人,或是說別人短處來娛樂大眾?國中時期的自娛娛人,因沒有節制,而招來人人的不尊重.上了高中,決定開別人玩笑,至少自己不會再有什麼不受尊重的困擾.
今天遇到一件事,讓我深深感覺到,人總是賤.............不是做賤自己,就是要賤他人!生活似乎沒有美好這兩個字..............
一個玩笑可以非常有趣,但也應是前提這個玩笑不會對當事人引起困擾,畢竟提升生活情趣比起傷害他人還顯得不重要.也許我們會對不解風情的人苦笑,唉嘆.但別以為一句....只不過是開玩笑嘛!!又沒有什麼........就想要搪塞自己開別人玩笑的事實,他人沒有必要成為你玩笑中的主角,如此說來,能夠有準則,自娛娛人的人真是幽默高手,當然前提也要他人懂得尊重.
a joke or a practical joke? It's the thing you can choose for your amusing others.

Life is so incredible!

今天上特導,學前特殊兒童之教育!突然有種感觸,酸酸的感觸!看見影片中父母殷殷期盼孩子健康的眼神,讓我更覺得健康就是一種最奢侈的幸福了.只是為什麼社會上健康的人,已經擁有了一切希望的基礎的人,要做壞事呢?望著那雙雙慈愛的眼神,耳邊卻傳來呼嚣而過的飆車聲,這是諷刺!超級諷刺!!別人恨不得能夠生來健健康康,結果社會充滿好手好腳的廢人......人生嗎?一句話想解釋一切不公平,但也許無奈吧.........只希望未來一切冥冥中皆已安排好!

My 1st Time Hanging around Taipei City

It happened that I got a chance to visit Taipei since I had to attend a CIEE meeting and apply for a Visa at AIT the other day. Thus I made a decision of absence all the class on Monday, and as I expected that I got my Visa.
Taipei is really a big city. Though I didn't visited it all, I had a glimpse of this modern and historic city. The Office of the President, Museum, Shin Kong Mitsukoshi, huge Nova, 101 Taipei Financial Center, National Taiwan University,etc are places and buildings I have been to and seen. It's a different feeling and view how I see Taipei before that it is really excellent and fasinating.

National Taiwan University

Library of NTU
It's tiring to take such a long-time bus. Only when I am sitting in the car toward a distant place in Taiwan do I feel Taiwan to be a "BIG" island.

5/8~~Happy Mother's Day!!!^^

Happy Mother's Daye............I have a lot of sorrow for my going to USA,Mom! I know we are still in debt....and you paid the the whole expence of my trip which Dad didn't do at all. Thank you!!! I am sure I really want to go. It will be a very significant experince for me in my lifetime. I am sorry to let you sustain the hardship. I love you,Mom!!!!^^ And grandma, I love you, too!! Happy Mother's Day!! The anguish is what we can change as the environment goes worse. Remember we are the one and I will always be there for you!

Love son

Kevin

Good Job,My Boddies!! ^^

今天下午,終於把新家整理好!!!一切似乎就緒,就等著我們把東西給搬進去了!!
打給房東要求更換門鎖與燈管,他的回應似乎不太耐煩......

人之相處以和為貴,這世上或許真有高低尊卑,但亦只是時運造成.........即人云:三十年河東,三十年河西.今日人有求於我,必挺身而出,無愧於己.接續的回報與否,沒那麼重要了.

歷經此次租屋經驗,非無成長.它讓我見識到人的劣根性,也讓我更深刻體會到,能夠克服種種人的劣根性,而成為一位好房東的努力!世事無絕對,只有相對,此房東不是絕對差,只是相對差.....唯有透過體會到"壞",才能了解成為"好"的難能可貴.此次經驗謹記在心,一面提醒自己小心防範再次發生,一面提醒自己不要犯錯...
總之辛苦囉!!謝謝圓圓和臺晏!!!!

A Loss after Success...

Today during the class"the principles and practices of communication in school administration(學校行政的溝通原理與實務)", when the teacher said a grown-up child often becomes more independent and have less relationship of child and parents, I felt a little indescribably sorry as Kxv(臺晏) told me. There must be lots of feelings like that when we have accomplished something. A feeling of loss and success will leads to a climax and comes out the loneliness.

瑞里螢火蟲之夜!! Starts of Fireflies~

On 4/30~5/1, we went to Ruili scenic area to see fireflies.
You will never know that there could be another star world near us, which is a world around us as the twinkling light of the fireflies ablazed in the very dark dark night. It is really a special memory that I will never forget.

瑞太古道途中...禿禿的遠方是921走山的草嶺......


漂亮幽靜的古道內...走起來好涼爽哦!!


瑞太古道出口...到太和囉!!^O^

阿里山國家風景區-瑞里
Alishan National Scenic Area-Ruili

兩個心得:
1.原來這世界還有第二個星空...美麗的星空,星星一樣會閃耀,更會移動,還可以學電視中,把星星摘下來呢!!
2.心境不同,感受也不同...同樣走在雜草叢生的山間小徑,夜遊拜拜增添弔詭氣氛...找尋螢火蟲卻讓這條小徑增添分外歡愉感,奇阿!!世界為何端看由何角度入眼...

A poor cat awakens a poor tragedy!

Last night, on the way to the finance-control class, I met a cat hit by a car lying in the middle of the road. It's a black cute cat, but it seemed that it can't move its back legs both. Fortunately, a good guy came and took it to a safer place beside the road. I was in such a rush for the class and I told myself I will took it to the hospital if it was still at the same place after my class dismiss. In the end, I couldn't find it. A critical feeling knocked me on my head saying that I've already missed something. Maybe the poor cat was dead or recovered in a few minutes and walk away or anything except an assurance of its being safe and sound.
可憐的動物,因為人類的貪婪,圖自己的便利,竟然佔據了那麼多適合其他生物生長的環境.我們虧欠他們太多了,同樣是生命,沒有貴賤之分吧.更何況貓是這麼有靈性的動物,竟然會有城市這種東西來威脅到他們的生命.這不是人類應該做的.我們實在是虧欠太多太多了.不知道自己該有什麼人生目標的人們,不知道退休該做什麼的人們,可以考慮照顧這些可憐的小東西上............義工,捐錢,聲援,都可以的!!!別總是誇自己是萬物之靈,也該做些真正萬物之靈該做的事情了吧!!!

The Future is Going To Be Shining next 6F-3'door

The renting my new house has finally been done. If it goes right as we thought before, 圓圓(XXX),臺晏(Kxv)and I are going to share one room in -4. XXX......I'm sorry for you that it turned out to let us to force you to live with Kxv and me.
The host of the house is really kind of mean that we only bargain 5000NTD a month for an apartment with 2 rooms, 1 bathroom and 1 living room, excluding an air conditioner he originally promised, which made us a little upset.
但.....結果是......終於不用一個人來來回回永康台南了.....重點是一個人的生活還滿無聊的!!!終於簽了.........一切找房子的事結束......新的煩惱是搬房子,整理新住所了........一樣的累人.........呼!!

大門的小小感應器!!!真特別!!!

A mission finally done!

The prepare work was finally done until today. Booking a fight, sending 900+35 USD, filled in the application sheet and so on could be a stressful job for me to take before my real hard job in Boston 2 months later. Dad is really my Dad that I feel much supporting power which stemmed from him has made me conquer lots of blocks bothering me. I almost cried when you told me that I don't have to worry about anything and you will take care of everything. Thank you!!!! I love you!!!(I am so shy that I dare say it here.)
The task of renting my room has ultimately come to an excellent end. The host invited us to the agent's place for a further contract. Tomorrow is the day. I really hope that we can have a nice price and more furniture and mostly, have our rent start in June. God bless us!!!
臺晏,圓圓加油阿!!!!!

No one has right to look down on anyone!

今天忽然想到一個放在心裡好久的話!趕緊把它紀錄下來!
其實長了這麼大,父母總是說不可驕傲,但是這為什麼?
因為驕傲沒有落魄的久嗎?想想也是,但是也許有更好的解釋!那天,吃飯吃到一半,忽然想到,就算一個人可以仗勢自己的才能看不起別人,但是卻沒有一個人是無敵的,才能好並不就代表不用吃農夫種的稻米,喝紅茶店小姐泡的紅茶,使用辛苦行員工作的銀行......當我們自認為樣樣很厲害時...卻也會感到一絲絲孤獨吧...樣樣還不是都得依賴這大社會的一切,裡面有車夫,清潔員,廚師,工人...

每個人都是組成社會的一大功臣

也僅是組成社會的一小份子

自以為是,認為可以提高商品價格把別人的錢不眨眼的賺進口袋,殊不知笑完別人白痴後,吃的第一餐滷肉飯也被老闆笑著把錢賺回去.賣弄自己的能力自以為是嗎?沒有必要!若要相互欺騙,不管何種身分地位,皆變成互相魚肉的低等生物.以誠相待吧!!!

Happy Birthday to justchild~沛原!!

Today is 沛原's birthday, as his friends , we went to Holiday KTV for celebration. There were so many people coming there,which mean that he's really very popular. Actually, that's exactly match what I've thought, a seccessful man having good relationship with everyone he known.
It's a lot of fun there, 14 people, including some 沛原's friends I didn't know, singing happyly and loudly that almost took my sound.

Ultimately Seems to Be An End and A New start!

Some say that after breaking up with someone is definitely going to turn a new leaf. That's exactly how I felt today and so did my ex-girlfriend.
It's really an end of a sweet and harsh time and a start of a new life. Maybe sometimes we just have to have a new look into ourselves.

Tired!!!

The midterm is around the corner.
Lots of papers are waiting for my terminatng them.
And I have to join the training before I take the job.

Now I eventually know!!

Not until today do I know how Blogger works.
It is really a great and playful stuff for me.
Thanks for the ones who created this.^-^
You're all angels!

WOW!!

A job in the US has finally been found by my continual effort! Thanks God!