生命中有許多第一次
一直以來
我像是為了這第一次而活的
只因為這世界上有太多太多的事情可以嘗試了
第一次在大學校園內的戲劇演出
第一次熬夜打電動
第一次蹺課
第一次拍電影
第一次拍動畫
第一次戀愛、第一次分手
第一次摔車
第一次到Boston打工與旅遊
第一次加入烏漆媽黑收容所
第一次敗高價音響
第一次Men's Talk
第一次在國小教學
第一次登上玉山
第一次打羽棒球
第一次花5000元不眨眼 買了羽絨外套
第一次與實習夥伴的狂歡歌唱
第一次的感動、高興、擔心、害怕
第一次不見得該帶給我們所想要的
但它帶給我們新鮮
用心去發現
真的可以感受到第一次是無所不在
生活也因第一次而保有向著未來的動力
第一次
第一次
第一次
永遠的第一次
Today, we had a special Christmas game in Wesley Church.
It's called white elephant gift exchange.
I gave away cookies and soap and got a English learning magazine back.
I found the game interesting for even Taiwanese who never heard of it.
We did had a lot of fun playing it
, especially when everyone took turns stealing other's gift.
And it got exciting in the end.
Thank Paul for telling us to play this fabulous game from his back home.
I am interested in inviting my co-workers in my School to have one.
The white elephant gift exchange is really a good hit!
經過好幾個禮拜的準備，教學觀摩終於在今天結束了。
我終於鬆了一口氣。
一年就這麼一次的，應該說，一生也就這麼一次的觀摩...
想想...不知是該怎麼說我的感覺了
介於學生與老師之間身份的「實習老師」
身份不明確，做起事來也不知道是該積極還是得過且過
但教起書來
還是會想把它教好、做好
也許這就是人的本性
不管做什麼
就是會想把它盡可能地做到好
我想我也是這樣
也加上那些孩子身上散發出的活力與笑容
讓我了解當一位老師的快樂
還讓我一度想考老師，當一名老師
就為了能一直看到孩子的笑容
只是我已有自己的未來規劃，也只有把想法放在心裡
就這樣，在身為一位不當老師的實習老師的立場
我認真地準備這一次的教學觀摩
這種矛盾的感覺真的這我不知道該說什麼了
今天的教學還算ok~
校長有事出國，由學務主任來看我們上課
還加上幾乎全部的實習夥伴幫忙
心中的壓力減少了
增了一些信心
而因為今天有三場(小黃、我、圓圓)
在這些實習團隊在趕場時，特別讓人有一種興奮的感覺
一種特別的心情
經歷一早的「趕場」，我們在中午前一節開了檢討會
其實大家都很會說話的藝術
說得得體精闢又不傷人
大家說我控制時間上還要再加強
其實我是認為我應該把教案的活動時間重新調整
是我錯估孩子整理大意的時間長度
令外
小孩子們真的是很乖
比起平常時候
不管怎麼樣
呵呵
這一切都會留在我的心裡
感謝這些陪我成長的人
實習夥伴們、師長們和我的實習輔導老師^^
Yushan, as we know, is the highest mountain in Taiwan and even in East Asia.
She is famous for not only the height of 3952 meters(13,114 feet) that makes her outstanding
, but also the abundance of scenery in four seasons and the diversity of plants, animals and other special species.
This time, fortunately I had a chance to climb up Jade Mountain.
There were other four people coming with me, Sarah, Anny, Adam and David.
We set off last night to a simple hotel named 冠雲山莊 in Fenqihu(奮起湖).
It's already dark and late, when we got there.
We went to sleep immediately after we find our rooms.
There, I met a group of graduate students.
They had their first time of climbimg a mountain.
I had a a short but good talk with them though they were a little elder than me.
I started to anticipate the climbing tomorrow with these good guys.
Early in the morning, it's about 5 o'clock.
We woke up and had our breakfast.
And after that we set off to the starting place.
"玉山登山口"
It's a amazing place that made me kind of back up all my strengh to give it a shock just for the outstanding rock.
The way to the top of Yushan was really different from it to 奇萊南峰.
The trail was not so smooth and even a little bit steep.
The gravel and sun were not like the soft earth and cool shadow of leaves.
I still enjoyed the different kind of view and feeling though.
to be continued...
After consoling my teacher, I changed my way of teaching by putting more smiles.
She is strict to the children, which makes me try to be like her.
I thought I didn't notice her tendering after the austerity.
Once I caught the key of interacting with my children.
I really found the magic power of smiles.
It did work!
When you want to be with the children in happiness
,smiles are needed.
That's right!
After being strict, you have to be nice to them at teh right time.
I think I am still learning to be a teacher who is both strict and tender.
The children gave me courage to continue teaching
, that made me kind of fond of them.
12月5日，是大家領薪的好日子！
三個月份的實習津貼，加上School的打工
讓我的錢包裝滿滿
心裡很開心
有時候人好像就是這樣現實
為五斗米折腰嗎？
好像是...
壓力這麼大，這麼多上課、代課
感覺一切除了心靈的成長
還加上一點物質上的回饋
感覺更加充實
說它是錢似乎有些俗氣
但是
若是這筆努力所換來的
可以自己快樂與幸福
就比較感性了
Song by Jet - Look What You've Done
帶著這股些微的成就
路過慶中街的小星星
心中突然升起一股感慨
與Eva吃飯的小星星
一次是在孔廟前
一次就是這裡
孔廟前，是甫回國後仍甜蜜的兩人
慶中街，是分手後難能再見的兩人
一樣是小星星
不一樣的感覺
也帶給充滿成就感的我
一種交雜的情緒
分手也一年了
心雖然成長不少
但總是似乎在期待什麼似的
哈哈
想太多了
回家的路上，紅燈前
我想著今日與過往
突然間
眼前的紅綠燈
由紅轉綠
督促我加緊油門
向前前進
Until today after obsevrving 郁穎's teaching, I knew some aspects for me to improve.
I need smiles.
And kids need my smiles, too.
I think that is what I admire my teacher for.
She can send out relief for students by letting them talk what they want
and get back to the book immediately.
Put more smiles!
I told myself.
Not even get more improvement
,but also more interaction with lovely children.
I suddenly felt so sorry for the students
that I've been too strict and tense.
They can't know the real me and they can't have a real class.
上禮拜讓我難過的事件，在今天請教老師下
終於得到些許舒緩
班上孩子排擠別人與被別人排擠的事
事實上在社會上也都會出現
我因為看到孩子排擠不喜歡的人
不想和他同一組別
讓我覺得我看到了人性醜陋的一面
卻疏乎了其實在大人的世界裡
不也是這樣子
我何嘗不也是依不同的標準與要求看待這些較特殊的兒童
自己都難以公平對待了
還要求學生要不計一切
與做事不專心不負責的人一組呢?
是我的話
我也不想與他們一組
但是差別只在於
我是個社會歷鍊比他們深的老師
我知道要怎麼表達才不會使場面和諧不尷尬
道不同，不相為謀
但也要讓彼此都有個台階下才是
孩子們還在學習圓融的處事技巧
所以遇到不喜歡的人、事、物
總是直接地反彈
故學著圓融待人與讓自己變得歡迎是孩子的本份
而我呢
身為老師
就是教導孩子們處事的態度與技巧
這讓我想起昨天與西蕾和順去看的
「佐賀的超級阿嬤」
裡邊的阿嬤這樣子跟昭廣說
『使人不感到尷尬的體貼，是真正的體貼』
在體貼別人，表現自己關心之餘
也要注意不要讓別人感到難堪
才真的是體貼
我想我想替兩位受到班上排擠的同學找組別
應該讓他們感受到關心之餘
也夾雜著滿滿的難堪吧
真的感到很抱歉
我的學生們
希望你們都能早日體會到與別人相處的模式
讓彼此沒有傷害
開開心心的
感覺已經實習了好長一段的時間
但是我還是抓不到我想要的感覺
學生怎麼樣子才算乖
怎麼樣子是不太乖
我總是不知道
學生怎麼樣子是可以接受的吵鬧?
怎麼樣子是必須馬上制止的吵鬧?
我不是很了
怎麼辦
我知道我是我自己標準的問題
但是我似乎還抓不到自己的標準在哪
有時候吵一點可以
有時候我就會不想要有任何聲音
我抓不到，相信學生也無所適從
哈哈
這件事情不止困擾我
也讓我很生氣
心情不是很好
加上這禮拜代Sarah的課
實在壓力很大
可能
在某些標準要求上
我要讓自己清楚一點
也好讓學生能夠有所遵從
自己也能開心一點了
今天到Wesley Church上Paul的課
上完一半時間後
到樓下參加教會辦的感恩節大餐
大家一起分享、感恩
感覺真的很好
有能力幫助別人真的讓自己覺得幸福
接受別人的祝福也真的很幸福
還好我還有這一群都喜歡英語與分享的同學、朋友
真的很開心
I hate quarrels.
Sometimes they occur unexpectfully.
These days I suffered this sort of unhappiness with friends I live with.
It was painful actually
,but I can see the significant facters separating our friendship
are only misunderstanding and the lack of polite manners of communication.
That's solvable.
And I was taught a lesson, a big lesson.
I hope each other can do their best to keep the friendship to go long
if both think it as important treasure.
I cherish friends and family.
I always try my best to force myself to be nice to others as I do to myself.
Through more incidents challenging friendship
,you will know more how precious good friends are.
I don't know what will happen to us (XXX&Taiyen&I)after we split 6 months later.
I do worry about it now.
Nation : Taiwan, Republic of China
Population : 23,036,087 (2006 estimate)
Capital : Taipei City
Language : Mandarin/Taiwanese/Hakka
Establishment : Xinhai Revolution October 10, 1911
Location:
Photo From : Wikipedia Taiwan R.O.C.
This is my country. I love you though there're still rooms to improve.
Taiwan is a name that needs to be called as a country.
The people and the food here are fantastic.
Everyone here trys their best to be nice and helpful.
The beauty of the nature is also surprising.
Taiwan is an beautiful island surrounding with lots of precious natural resources
, such as places to visit, special species for researching and resevation, etc.
The living quality here is not too bad because Taiwanese work hard and live hard for their colorful life, which makes the environment better than many places on earth.
to be continued...
這論調是從何而來?
若是養了貓，就會知道。
自從大一的暑假與姊姊從路邊撿了一隻貓
我們家進入了另一個快樂的世界
貓是一種很有趣的動物
做什麼都很認真
看到一樣物品
就能把它當成假想敵
認真地與它打一埸仗
看了他們認真的動作與表情
除了笑他們笨之外
竟也慢慢被他們專注的眼神吸引
愛上這種動物
這讓我也開始改觀
認真地做好每一件事
會讓一個人變得美麗
我開始尋找身邊的人
是不是也有這種個性
但我發現現在的社會，太過講求投資報酬率
一件簡單但不甚重要的事
會選擇不做
而非認真做
或是遇到一件事
只求完成即可
不要求中間過程的投入
這專心的特質也許都是我們所缺少的
當專注一件事情時
不管它是什麼事
都可以讓專注的元素
佈滿全身
散發非凡的魔力
形成一股不可抗拒的吸引力
這種吸引力是超乎外在形體的
也難怪會有人說認真的女人最美麗
男人其實也是如此吧
我想
It's been a long time since we met.
Everyone seems great.
順 is now teaching in Ren-Ai Elementary School(仁愛國小)
as a student teacher.
He's having a good time.
His teacher offers him extreme freedom
to do what he want.
He is not planning to attend National Examination at present
which is what the poor graduates from teacher's school usually do.
He is also not planning to apply for graduate school.
All he plans is do the best with things he's doing right now.
C-ray is one of my friends who keeps touch with me abidingly.
We have our habits in common.
We both love movies and he has lots of movies to borrow.
Ray is also not planning anything.
What he's doing now is working in his family's beef theme restaurant.
We had a good talk today.
Especially, 順 has the same job as I,
so we talked a lot about life as student teachers
and some info of classmates in senior high.
I love to be with friends.
I can laugh and tell jokes as I please
and they echoes me.
I went to meet Alick at about 11:20.
We have not met each other for 1 year.
But the last time I met him is in Shan-Hua Rail Station.
He just came back from A-li Mountain
and we said good-bye right after we greeted each other.
So in fact, it's been 3 years.
I went to his place in Taichung
when he was a freshman in Tunghai University.
Alick may be my most important friend in my life.
I spent almost all my junior and senior high time with him.
We were really good friends,
but some trivial disputes somehow blocked the way
of our fantasitic friendship in the 2nd year in senior high.
I believe that some power and faith deep in our heart
didn't want to give in to the ridiculous misunderstanding.
That's why we became friends again.
I can't tell the myth that links us.
I know he really sees me as his best friend.
And so do I.
That's the reason I bought a gift to him when I went to USA
though we had lost connection with each other
when we were junior in college.
After the 1-year-late gift I sent him today,
I hope we can keep in touch.
Get the good times back.
I don't know how this feeling gets started.
The students in my 501 class are making me disappointed.
In my view as I met them the first time,
I thought they were kind of naughty and just need some disciplines.
The fact arises after 2 months somehow from their poor behavior.
I wonder why they are irresponsible and lazy that makes me furious.
Their parents should take the most responsibilties.
The kids should spend more time with their dads and moms than teachers,
so children should be taught well at home.
Sadly, they are not taught well at home and need teachers.
When a teacher wants to help the child out of bad habits or behaviors,
the parents stop the teacher and think the teacher minds too many business of their child.
That's how Taiwan is going down.
Do the parents really love their children and think what they do will be the worst discipline?
Most of them don't know.
I stand on the teacher's side.
Teachers know what is the best discipline because they have so many experiences of seeing how a child be with their different way of teaching.
Parents haven't yet see how their child be and they are still trying every way with using their best way the moment they regard as.
Moreover, parents sometimes get confused to do the best decision as being child-loving parents.
Who is going to be the victim?
The child and Taiwan society.
And we, the old people who will be relying on the children we grow.
Please, for a better Taiwan, be more longsighted.
Family celebrated the birthday of Grandpa on the weekend.
We went to Chigu(七股) to enjoy a table of delicacies and the wide view there.
I was a little bit sad that not all of the family members came,
but I still had a good time because the rest of us had a happy talk.
After lunch in 溪南春, we headed for habitat of black-faced spoonbills.
It was really fun to see the birds cleaning their feathers and prowling.
Dear Grandpa,
I really wish you have a good time whenever you are. I can't forget every word you said to me and every life experience you reminded me. I do miss the time when I lie on your legs watching T.V. with asking you thousands of questions. You always satisfies me. When I was naughty and made troubles, you didn't spare your stick. That's why I've grown up to be a man knowing rights and wrongs. I love you and hope you enjoy your life with us. Take care of yourself.
Love Grandson,Lee
蔡老師到台北戲劇研習，一連三天
我當然當起代課老師，一連就是二天
星期四與星期五
這是我實習以來，最剌激的兩天
也是最累、壓力最大的兩天...
老師雖然寫下了時間表，也儘量安排學生考練習卷
我只須要照表操課
但是計劃總趕不上變化
且學生一直在試探老師的秩序標準
造成時間延誤，進度落後
我必須自已補其所不足
讓下課前的進度回到計劃軌道上
關於秩序
學生的試探能力很強
一套標準必須貫徹始終
不然會不為學生所信服
一吵鬧，先口頭規勸
再來是處罰
再不行只好處罰抄寫圈詞
學生似乎十分被動
且總是需要一個口令一個動作
但是我發現他們其實知道怎麼做是對的
老師才喜歡，也對別人和自己有利
只是他們仍然不做，因為他們懶惰
這也讓我對他們更加生氣與失望
學生的毒舌也是很可怕的
大人毒舌害人是因為不知節制
小孩毒舌害人是因為不知道其為毒舌
而被毒舌者往往不知道如何調適心理
便得很傷心
小孩子在做事方面，較不知道要為大眾著想
總是第一個想到自己，且做事非常不仔細
一件事要做到好好難，總要老師在後面看著
提醒哪裡沒做好，真的是累死老師了
兩天就在混亂中與不知道怎麼般地過去了
過程中，我想了很多
也收穫很多
It's late at night.
I am still here awake.
A few minutes ago, I had a profound discussion with Justchild(沛原).
It was a good one.
From the quarrel between XXX(圓圓) and Jessie(一隻羊) to the history of our own....
The talk was lead to a unpredictable place that we both felt the unnecessary dispute between good friends should not exist before consulting in a very nice way.
I disagree to advise late.
Improvements and suggestions should be given out before it is too late.
Later, we took out the old articles in our dorm board in NUTN BBS.
Different arguements for the same factors occured on it.
Sometimes if we want to grow ourselves up, we have to make progress against our weakness.
If it the altercation can't cause any self-examination and amendment, the affray will be nothing but a wound to the soul.
Then we talked about our affection affair and families.
We both grew up from the failure of former love and became more careful of choosing the Miss Right.
There are a lot to learn on the life-long road.
Thanks God we have good friendship as company.
Shouldn't we treasure it more!
Just now we had a happy celebration for XXX(圓圓) and Jungle(小黃).
Indeed, wish you have your dream jobs and happy life.
XXX was too brilliant that he knew the surprise before it was given out.
But we knew he was still happy we really made an effort preparing it.
So did Jungle, the one who was surprised of the second birthday cake.
You two are my good boddies.
It's been more than 4 years since we met.
The relationship keeps been heaten up and up.
Though sometimes we experience the low tides, it is we that pass them through together.
We are going to live together for less than 1 year.
Cherish the happiness we have.
I really love the feeling of hanging out with boddies.
四點，便被叫醒，房內雖一片漆黑，但外頭的月娘仍照得地上一片光亮
好美
精神很好，因為昨晚7點熄燈後我就睡了
算一算，也睡了8個小時呢!
一早趕路，是為了要上奇萊南峰攻頂，然後看日出
多麼美妙的計劃
我們快快吃了早餐，便拿起輕裝出發
上山的路是樓梯，走得有些累人
但是在夜裡趕路上山還是頭一次人生體驗
太陽尚未露臉，月亮的光卻是照得一大片的高山草原神秘
好美的高山草原，一大片，一大片
像是一座大型的高爾夫球場
頭頂上，是皎月與星辰
披星戴月是什麼
現在正是這種情形
趕路著，昨天路旁的闊葉林已不見縱影
針葉林也漸漸得在我們腳下，往上一看
只剩下高山草原了
如此的高度
只剩草可以生存
我們竟然也可以憑自己的力量到達
真的是很開心
其實趕不到在山頂上看日出
畢竟出發的晚，新手走的也慢
但是運氣可不賴
天氣是大好的晴天
我們便在中途停下來觀賞日出
冷冷的天氣，讓我們更加喜悅太陽的到來
日出後的景色，草原上的顏色很奇特
是一種特別的綠色
好美
身體也漸漸暖和起來
我們繼續趕路，走在草原中開出的小路上
往下看很高
往上看也很高
終於，在經過一個廢棄的兵營後，我們成功地上了山頂
時間8點多
這裡是奇萊南峰3358公尺 日期10月10日 天阿!!
國慶日呢!
這是我有生以來登上的第一座台灣百岳(#39/100)
遙望遠方可以看到霧社，奇萊主峰，奇萊北峰，南華山等等
看著走過來的路途與四周景物
皆在我的腳底之下
真的有種踩在世界頂端的快感
我們辦到了
征服了一座百岳
很快的，我們便下到天池
幾小時之前，我們才剛經過的天池
現在太陽已經出來了，原來天池是這麼的小
不過Sarah說她有水的時候
經過她的時候還有繞一段路繞過她呢！
天池這裡的石頭滿特別的
似乎就是這裡的地質結構
但是我和姊姊都不懂
由於小Annie的腳似乎沒有辦法再走了
之前她就有舊傷
而下午之後我們下山要走13km的路
那時是沒人可以代替她走的
故想必她必須有所取捨
要捨棄南華山的攻頂了
就這樣，我們留下小Annie在天池休息
我，姊，Sarah轉進往南華山的小路
這條路的景色
真的不一樣
植被一樣是高出草原
只是這被我稱為高出草原的箭竹林
這回與我們很靠近
像是在加油站洗車一樣
我們要穿過箭竹林才能繼續向前進
兩旁的風景也非常引人入勝
我和姊姊一直停下來拍照
沒辦法啊！
第一次在這麼高的地方
景色與心情都是前所未有
多麼想紀錄眼前所有的東西
過了不久
我們也爬上了南華山
雖然過程中被騙了很多次
以為眼前的高峰上會有三角標
結果上了頂端才知道一山還有一山高
就這樣我們上了好幾次自以為的山頂
最後才到達終點
南華山上也是好美
